Feeling Emo
Friday, February 1, 2008
Starting in a new school is hard, but it's different for me than most of my friends. There are some who miss their primary school friends. I don't because I was never really one to get up close and personal to anyone. Most of my classmates have no trouble at all making new friends but right now I'm probably losing my friends. *shit I'm getting emo* They don't care about me anymore and it seems like no one really does. Maybe that's why I stopped talking. Because no one hears me. I guess no one would know that I don't talk 'cos they only notice me when I do. Sometimes I feel invisible, because few people actually notice me. Isn't it ironic how one is sometimes only noticed in the worst of times? I'm not saying that I hate 1A or anything, because if I did I'd hate every single place in this entire world because I don't fit in anywhere. At least my form teacher doesn't
noticeably pick on me.
Right, so this has been my life for 6-7 years and few people actually know. Truth is, everyone has a part of them that's falling apart. Some of us feel as if nobody cares, while others feel that they are greatly responsible for some things and therefore feel that they are supposed to be perfect. Some put up a brave front while others visibly fall apart. In truth, Everyone's 'emo', but those who don't seem to be give those who do this nickname to make themselves seem as if they're not. Geddit?
I really want to help others, to let them know that someone cares, that someone understands, because many a time, we feel that no one else knows what we're going through and no one understands, but no one really thinks I understand. They underestimate, depreciate, efface, look down on me. Maybe I'm too good an actress. LOL that's impossible. I know probably no one would believe this is me speaking, 'cos you all underestimate me. All the time.
