Shadow
Thursday, March 20, 2008
how much one can keep behind closed doors?
how many secrets one can hide from the world?
have you ever thought of the ones around you, whether they're feeling down or up, whether something's going on behind the mask?
have you ever tried to make someone smile, to know someone, to let that person feel loved?
ever tried making things right?
to make someone happy, must one first Be happy?
ever been left behind?
talked but no one listened?
Oh, lots, if one is strong enough, but it all comes out in the end.
lots too, as long as one is silent enough.
yeah, but mostly i'm always wrong.
yeah, but no one thinks i understand.
yeah, but i'm usually the one who makes them go wrong.
dunno.
yeah, sure, what do you expect when you're invisible?
lots of times, and lots of times the people i talk to just turn away and talk to others or ask me to wait and then they just turn their attention away from me. maybe i'm boring. i know i am.
This is my life. My pathetic, diaphanous, transparent, unimportant life. i'm just a shadow in others' perfect lives. i never linger long in their thoughts. i'm too boring. i just took a tour around blogspot and found that almost everyone has someone to confide in, to share their deepest secrets to sleep over with to cry with to hug when you cry to even TALK. i don't really have a best friend cos best friends are supposed to really know you and love you for who you are but in the first place i probably don't even have a friend who won't forget me in a crowd. except for a few exceptions, maybe. kelley, janelle, yeah, that's about it. i'm diaphanous, invisible, et cetera. face it--well, i already have--no one really knows me. i'm just a shadow of a happy girl, moving in and out of people's lives. i'm forgotten. always have been, and always will be.
