had a bad day
Thursday, April 3, 2008
yeah, as you can tell from my title, i had a bad day.
one thing that really set my time bomb off was that i failed my maths test. only two people failed. i hardly talked for the rest of the day. i'm starting to hate maths. i mean i really try but there's always some careless mistake. i can never get it all right. such a fault is unacceptable for a perfectionist like me. even worse there's no way to vent my frustration. when i feel emo i play piano but i just can't concentrate and i make more mistakes and then i get even more frustrated. i guess you can say it's a good thing mum made me cut my nails cos if not right now i would probably be scratching my arm raw. i want something to punch but everyone's watching there's no room to breathe. there's no way to just let it out. sometimes i feel as if i can't even breathe without someone noticing.
felt emo for the rest of the day.
i had violin lesson at 1745. stupid perfectionist. why is he always picking out every single slip up? crazy old man. i don't care if you were in sso first violin you're crazee anyway.
