Forgiveness.

There's a wide rift between knowing and understanding, and in the same way thinking and acting are on two different sides of the universe. And don't give me that chimmed-out face. I'm not going to talk about how easy forgiveness is, or how it is only for certain people who deserve it. No.

I'd held a grudge against my P6 teacher for years. He ruined an entire year of my life. Take one story, look at it from two angles. From my P.O.V, he picked on me everyday. Everything about me was tainted, imperfect, odious. There was no doubt that he was biased. Everyday he scolded me in front of the class, told them how impeccable, assiduous my brother was. No point telling my parents, they'd never understand. They agreed with teachers about everything about my education. They honestly thought it was to my benefit. They never imagined how I felt. After all, if it were for my benefit, shouldn't they at least consider how i feel? You wanna know what happened? I lost all motivation to study. I didn't study throughout my whole PSLE period.

I got 4th in school with a T-score of 256, but no matter how happy I was, I just couldn't shake the feeling that I would have done better if I had studied. I had wanted to go to Dunman High but I applied for Anglican High instead.

When my secondary school life started, the stress from the last year hadn't completely diminished and I was often in a bad mood, snapping at my friends who had gotten into AHS too. Before the first term was over, those primary school friends ditched me. When CCA selection day came, I joined band and they joined guitar.

Looking back, what seemed to be catastrophic turned out to be a blessing in disguise. If he hadn't ruined my primary school life, I wouldn't have lost all interest and motivation in my academics. If that had not happened, I would have gone to DHS instead of AHS. If that were to happen, my hair would be white by now. If they hadn't ditched me, I would have joined guitar, and if I had, I wouldn't have met the great people in my life. Savvy?

Sometimes, we don't understand why some things happen to us and not to others.

Romans 8:28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

Time heals, not because the pain of what had happened fades, but because the good that comes out of it is brought to light. Sometimes, the perfect life isn't always the best. So whenever you're hurt or things are getting out of hand,

Let go, let God.